Lyrics speak louder than words.

'I stood at a distance to feel who you are, hiding myself in your eyes'-Goo goo dolls.

Surrender.

Through her eyes
What do you see
The whole world against, her you and me
The sunshine that slowly faded away
Our last glint of light
Slowly dimmed out of sight.

I can't seem to find a way
To heal all your pain and
As the seconds pass
Unable to feel you grasp
You start to fade away.

I've kept this bottled inside
Can't even read my own mind

Surrender to the light
Embrace your fight
Mirrored in us all
Mirrored in you all

Forget the horror in our eyes
In the depths of my mind
Further within your thoughts
In a time zone, stuck in the past.

I've kept this bottled inside
Can't even read my own mind
I've kept this bottled inside

The shadow of light.

In life I have also gone by the concept of:

"Aim low and avoid dissapointment"

I mean for me so far in life it has been a good philosophy to live by, i mean come on you never get hurt and everything always lives up to your expections, WHAT COULD GO WRONG?! Nothing right, well sadly I was very mistaken and you will probably one day will too. Your bar will be raised and that one person you try and get out of your head just won't budge no matter how hard you try. Lifes full of choices we have to make, so are hard, some are easy but when it comes down to it you have to go whats within you, and not through anyone else...you will constantly be compared to everyone in this life you need to BLOCK THEM OUT, because if you constantly worry about them then you will become the shaddow in their light and trust me from past experience that is just not a good place to be.

So I say walk with your head held high everyone is beautiful in this world and everyone will get their chance just hold on until then, and grasp everything that comes you way. Do this for yourself, be the shining star in others, when they walk in the shadows, as you have done before.

the wonders of BOYKIND.

Right this ones for all you ladies out there! Everyone always says that boys are from a different planet and I used to think what the hell are these psychos on about, they are right here on planet earth! But *NEWSFLASH* girls, they are, they are stuck on planet ZONK without a clue! This is the 21st Century girls, where boys are more worried about when the next Call of Duty game is out, so unfortunately we have to make the first move, yes I know its daunting but unfortunately yes it is the only way. There are some things however boys will give away, like a CALLING to make you come to them:

1.The eye contact. (not the one you put in your eye).
2.The cheeky little smile.
3. They will go shy. (If they aren't cocky. aragent a-holes).

The two most common things, that are the calling techniques that they have learnt in looserville. Then it is up to you they have given you the signs of the approach, it is stupid, and you may find some that are REAL MEN and will approach you, but they are almost extinct. So unfortunately we need to WOMAN up and go get our men, do it for all the disfunctional men out there girls!

This is one girl who's not giving in.
Peace out ladies until next time.
OVER AND OUT.

Keep Looking

Last night I realised something, that our dream is actually "achievable". I've realised for a while now that I don't think I would actually be able to carry on without achieving, so now it has become more than just a dream, just something that you hope will happen but now something that has become a part of my life, and will be for as long as we are alive. The emptyness deep inside of me is growing bigger and bigger, we need to move forward in order for me to overcome this obsticle, its only two weeks now, the end is in sight. For now i'll stick with Avenged Sevenfold, Lostprophets, 30 Seconds to Mars, Blink 182 and My Chemical Romance, they guided me towards my light, my savior, music, and A.C. who will always play a massive part in my life. My childhood was never the best, but no where near the worst, keep looking for your dream and grab it with both hands and never let go, because if you do life could be very dark and grim, show the world what you got.

We might not all make history, but its guaranteed we will all make our own history.

A.C.

In life the people who you usually love is spilt up into two genres, family and friends, we all know the saying "ey you can't choose your family" but then again with this it is a two sided arguement. My family are the best thing on this world, I don't class the word "family" to be associated with "blood", but with a special bond that can never be broken. I have a "sister" that isn't the same blood type as me and doesn't even have the same genes or has the same second name. but she is my sister, we are exactly the same, we share the same dream and the same passion with all living things. Some people probably associate us for being "weird" for how close we are, but hey just think, you can't win all the low lives out there! She helped me when no one else really knew how, she hit the lock and gravity pulled us in, and now we are stuck bonded on one path together, to our dream. What I am trying to say is I found a love that I never thought I could, someone who is now another part of my family, a family that hadn't felt the same in a very long time, but we all have our hero's and idols in our lifetime and some say you should  never meet them, but i found mine, and it has changed my life for the better forever. If your family gets too much, hold on and don't give up because, there is that friend for you that will turn into family you just have to wait for gravity to take its course so you can collide on your path in life.
This post is dedicated to my "sister".

History

The world is a massive place, that consists of billions of people. Each one being important in their own way. Most people can go through life being unknown to most people, others can be idolised like a god. Some people want that so much that they die trying, overall the pressure which  i can only imagine would have got too much for them like the late great 'richey edwards' the writer for the manic street preachers...some can be idolosed to the the extent where from then on they're paths have been paved in the cracks of time like the great 'john lennon' who was murdered in cold blood, someone we will never get back who revelotionised music in the 20th century. When all said and done will are all given the tools in order to become great, its how we use them in which paves what we will become, we just need to make the decision and take a leap of faith  and hope the decision we made was right, and never look back. Who knows maybe only a few will make history, but its for sure that all of us will make our own history.

RIP to the ones who have fallen.